How it really happens..
- Eat me!
- No, thank you. I'm trying to lose weight.
- EAT ME!
- Really, no it's okay.
- EAT ME! NOW!
- Fine! You're making me do this!
I guess I thought
things would change a little. You know…I can’t do it. I’ve done it before. I’ve lost the weight. I know I CAN do it, but I don’t. All I’ve done is GAIN weight. Seriously, WTF? I’ve never tried to lose weight for anyone but me. I want to be healthy for me. Not for anyone else. I know my boyfriend loves me no matter what, but I want this for both of us. I know if I do it it will motivate him, too. I know that if he sees a good change in me…I’ll see a good change in him. I hate the gym. Honestly, if I didn’t ever have to go I wouldn’t. There has got be a way to avoid it. AND the food! OMG I can’t stand that I love food. It’s not even HOW MUCH I eat…it’s WHAT I eat. I eat horrible foods. I know they’re bad…I still do it. Why? Because clearly I don’t care. But I do care. I do care what I look like. I work with the skinniest, prettiest women you’ll ever meet…and next to them I look like a blob and fat. I need help. I need help..now. There has to be a way to change this…
that if you listen to upbeat music while working out you’re more likely to do more and get a better workout. You’ll want to move with the beat, making you move a little faster, doing a little bit more than you might if you have slow or no music.
This really does help!
Maybe if I post what I eat everyday I will be held accountable. Maybe if I make myself look at it all I won’t cheat..
5/21/12 - I did GOOD!
Started day with 1200 calories…
2 scrambled eggs - 140
1/2 Granny Smith apple - 41
Fresh & Easy Chicken Caesar Salad - 380
Mini Half & Half from Flame Broiler - 378
1 tbsp Magic Sauce - 60
Otter Pops - 25
Organic baby carrots - 70
Strawberries - 50
One chocolate coin - 29
Ended day with 27 calories!